Different friends have been asking about where I have been. I know that I have not been blogging or posting in my groups for awhile. Everything is ok. Family is all healthy. I am just dealing with some crushing depression. I really hate it. Intellectually I know that it is an imbalance. I am not someone who feels sorry for myself there are people out there far worse off than me. Last Nov. when I came home from the most wonderful once in a life time trip with my parents, a whole month in Ireland, I was hit with crushing depression. OMG why? I chocked it up to light deprivation disorder. (I live pretty far north) and threw myself into sewing.
Now I haven't even done any sewing for at least a week maybe more. I went to the Dr. this week for a check up. He was not very helpful. Eat less, sleep less, exercise more. duh! If I could do this I wouldn't be depressed. All he did was tell me to double up on my antidepressant. So I am dealing with the side affects of that and today is the day I will force myself to go play with fabric. I will pull myself out of this. I am still here. So thanks to those that have been wondering about where I have been.
You poor dear! Be careful with the antidepressants. And if you don't like what your doctor is telling you, go to another. Some doctors are better than others.
ReplyDeleteI know you can pull yourself out of this, from your posts and comments. I can tell you are a strong person. Surround yourself with bright batiks, and the things you love, and make sure you do something nice for yourself everyday! And don't put too much pressure on yourself. Try to relax, and enjoy yourself and the rest may take care of itself with the sewing.
What you are going through is hard. And if you haven't been there you can't understand. You know you should be happy or at least fairly satisfied with your life but you aren't. You wonder what is wrong with you. Getting in my sewing room and just doing something even if it is not a project helps me so much. I am there for you girl!!
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry to hear that you're going through this. I hope the antidepressants and the sewing therapy help, but if they don't, please go see another doctor! I hope this passes soon, and you're back to feeling like yourself. Be kind to yourself.
ReplyDeletethe fabric will help but also talking about feelings andwriting. You are not alone!
ReplyDeletePlease talk to a family member or another doctor if you are not feeling better by now. I've had depression for more than 20 years. You CANNOT just ignore it and hope it goes away. Please let us know you are doing OK. Don't sit alone and don't give up. Things can and will be better. Take it one day at a time. But see a doctor again if you need to. Maybe another doctor will be able to help you. My doctor helped me by telling me that depression is a disease and to think of it like a heart problem or something that doesn't "show up" when people see you. You are still sick even if they don't see it......like you'd see MS or whatever........(can't think of a good example) Hang in there. You can do it.
ReplyDeleteI've been there. I'm on antidepressants, and they keep me just at normal. Barely. I still have my moments, and it stinks. I personally won't sew if I have to force myself to do it. And, sweetie, if we could pull ourselves out of depression, we would do it!! It's more complicated than just realizing we are better off than other folks. Depression hurts, and there is no rationalizing it away. It might be good to find a new doctor. The guy you have is blowing smoke up someone's butt.
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ReplyDeleteIt's only been a week, but I miss you. I hope that you have gotten the new doctor or help from family that you need. Please feel better soon, looks like all of us are rooting for your recovery. Don't be shy if there is somthing that I can do to help.
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